Two years ago, at this very moment, we were a brand new family spending our first night at home. Porter had been born less than 24 hours previously and I’m pretty sure I was an elated wreck. My how far we’ve come!
A year later…
Tonight Aunt Anna came over and made Porter’s birthday cake, and while visiting she asked Porter the age-old birthday question, “Do you feel older and wiser?” I don’t know about Porter, but I’ve never felt as old and wise as I do today.
My parents asked me earlier in the day what I knew now that I didn’t two years ago. Of course the list is endless, but my response to them was, “I never knew I could be so tired.” The most unromantic response, ever. So I’ve been thinking about my good response to that question, and it sounds like this.
Until the past two years I never knew life could be so vivid. I feel the most unconditional love I’ve ever felt, since I was my own parents baby. The highs are higher and the lows are lower. Life has never been so very real, and there is no way in my past that I could have ever imagined the life I have now.
To really, intimately, watch a person become a person is the most profound human experience I’ve ever had. And to simultaneously be so proud of my child and so in awe of the pure power that he exudes, is breath-taking and inspiring. I’m still getting to know him more everyday, and everyday I’m more in love with him than before.
Porter is his own person now, and learning to respect that and help him grow into himself is the most challenging, exhausting and rewarding bit of life I’ve ever lived. He is a thriving, outgoing, energetic, curious and persistent fellow. I only hope I can do him and his spirit justice while he’s in my care.
In celebration of Porters 2nd birthday, all of Boise took a snow day! Or maybe it’s because of the unrelenting snow that just keeps falling. Either way it was a great day for fun. I did my best to document it in photos. If I was two, I’d think it was a very happy birthday.